I used to be addicted to emotional pain.
I didn’t like the pain one bit, but I did love it.
I sabotaged my business efforts, just so I could have more struggle. I beat myself up every time I didn’t reach my goals or when I had a emotion that was anything less than happy, which was daily. I worked myself into the ground & depression over and over again.
Like anything, I got a lot out of being addicted to suffering.
Pain gave me something to fight, something to prove, something to heal and something to do. If I could fight all the pain in the world, maybe I’d be finally worthy and deserving.
What do you get out of being addicted to pain?
With healing work, I was able to break patterns, but the big breakthrough didn’t happen until about a year ago when I had a spiritual awakening during a healing session and I actually started loving myself.
From that point forward, everything changed. I was no longer willing to accept the pain because I recognized it for what it was; an act of self-hate. I made a very conscious to stop beating myself to a pulp.
You’re not on this earth to fight pain. You’re here to experience joy.
It sent me a into a tail spin.
I mean, who was I without the pain?
But now that I’m on the other side of it, I have to tell you that it’s made room for the real me to emerge and I’m finally being, doing and having the life I’ve always wanted.
Who would you be without the pain?
You’d be free to acknowledge your heart’s desires. you’d tap into your divine guidance. You’d feel inspired to take action. taking inspired action is never hard even when it’s challenging. That’s because it comes from within.
Are you ready to start letting go of the pain?
Yesterday I created a a group healing journey to help you start letting go of the pain. You don’t need the pain to help you float. You have nothing to prove You can have more joy, happiness and inspiration now.
If you’re ready, click the link to get started
Do you ever get super clear about what you want, get started and then get stuck in paralysis?
It’s a little bit like having a harpoon in your hands, freezing in mid-air as you go to get your fish from the ocean.
Know what I mean?
You’re not alone. It’s normal.
It’s your FEAR stopping you from getting what you want. The problem isn’t the fear, the problem is you let the FEAR control you. If you let it control you, it will cause you to self-sabotage and STOP from getting what you want. Eventually you’ll either stop trying or start again and this whole pattern will start all over again.
I freeze all the time.
Earlier today it was about my launch in January (which I’m super pumped about) because I know you’re going to LOVE all the goodies that come with it.
Want to break the pattern?
The first step is to be aware of your pattern. You can’t change it if you’re not aware. For me, I realize that I become frozen I stop getting inspiration and I get stuck in the i don’t know what to do. Anything to stop me from taking the next step. It’s my first sign that I’m trapped in fear.
How does your pattern show up for you? Let me know in the comments.
Once you know the pattern, it’s time to clear it.
As a healer, I like to figure out the root cause of the fear and clear the need for the pattern in the first place. For example, this morning I dug up that this is a pattern that passed down from my ancestors. They had to believe this in order to survive .
Start by getting clear on how this pattern serves you. What are you learning? What do you think your ancestors were learning. What does God want you to learn? What virtues have you learned? This is hard for most people to do.
The tendency is to say it doesn’t serve you or that it just keeps you safe. EVERYTHING keeps you safe. Go deeper.
Are you ready to let it go? Let me know in the comments. If not, what’s holding you back!!!
If not, then keep digging. There’s still something in it for you for you to learn.
When you are ready to let it go, imagine the pattern in your being and release the energy into love and light.
That’s it – pretty simple right.
When I cleared my energy this morning, I stopped being frozen and I started receiving inspiration again. It was like being able to breathe.
Want to know what it is? It’s going to be one of the BEST ways to starts the new year EVER.
If you’re struggling with depression or low-vibration, this week’s message from God is for you.
It will help you rise into purpose, passion and aliveness.
Before I go there,
I want to tell you that I have a HUGE surprise for you coming in the comings weeks. I’ve not been this excited about anything in YEARS. You’re going to love it.
All I’m going to say is that it’s going to help you take back your power and truly come alive.
Yes! That’s a total teaser!
Back to the message from God …
When I connect with your energy and when I asked God what you need to know,
I see you standing on the side of a HUGE crater. I’m shown that you must go down the crater.
When you do go down, you come face to face with the part of you that is DEPRESSION.
I’m told to tell you that it’s not all of you, just a part of you. It’s not all of you. And then I hear the words…
If you want to feel better, find a way to forgive & love that part of yourself. Only then will the emotion pass and make room for new emotions.
So here’s how you can do this …
- Start by feeling your emotions. Write down the statement, “I am depressed,” and read it aloud repeatedly until you feel the emotion in your body.
- Ask yourself what’s the worst part about depression? What happens then? What happens then? Do a bit of a digging work to find the pit. It’s not going to feel good.
- Once you’re there, ask yourself, “What does it mean about you? This could be that you’re broken, something is wrong with you. It’s a core belief. How has this served you in your life?
- Once you’ve learned what it’s teaching you, forgive the depression. Connect with the emotion and repeat, “I forgive you. I’m sorry. Thank you. I love you,” until you feel truly make peace with depression. By the way, this is ho’oponopono prayer.
Try it and let me know how it goes.
A bit of a disclaimer …
I’m not a doctor. If you’re experience symptoms of depression, please consult with a medical professional. This exercise is one that I use to help shift out of a depressive state and get back into my power. It will help you provide a shift that you need and it’s not a replacement for medical advice.
Much love –
So I’ve been run over by a bulldozer!
Well not quite, but that’s what the last year feels like. It’s like the Universe handed me experience after experience to PUSH me to let go, to push me to see my value, to step more into my PURPOSE and to ultimately accept nothing less than happiness.
My mind didn’t go down without a fight!
But it’s so nice when it finally lets go because that’s when the CLARITY comes. There’s no confusion when you’re in your POWER.
So today I asked God for an inspired message to help you step into your power …
When I connect with your energy, I see you on a merry-go-round. It’s going really fast and you’re laughing really hard. All of a sudden you fall off and you start to cry.
When I ask God what you need to know, I hand coming down to the earth to pick you up. You go up and suddenly look down. You see that the merry-go-round is still going, but now it’s waiting for you to get back on.
You don’t always to fix what’s hurting. Sometimes you just have to get back on!!!!
Now go apply this. Tell me in the comments where in your life this applies and where you’re NOW ready to get back on the merry-go-round.
Much love –
It’s time for another Intuitive Monday. It’s honestly my favorite day of the week.
When I ask God what you need to know, I see you the word “connection”.
You’re standing in a circle, but the energy is flowing through you. You are feeling disconnected. When you do that, you get stuck in fear and lack. If you’re not careful, it’s a spiralle downward.
It’s time to shift your energy.
Connection starts with you and when you reconnect to your truth, you’ll be back on your way to being of service and living your purpose.
Here’s a quick exercise to help you do this:
- Where are you feeling disconnected? Life, business, clients, offers, money, relationship? Just pick one area. Maybe you’re just feeling disconnected from yourself and you’re wanting to reconnect.
- Take a sheet of paper and write down a statement that connects you to this thing that makes you feel disconnected. “I feel disconnected from ABC.”
- Touch the paper and feel the connection. Touch and release. For 10-minutes. Just feel what it feels like and let go. Repeat the process.
- Journal about your experience and any ah-ha’s that you’ve had. What’s it like to be in connection? What thoughts do I have when I’m connection? What do I feel?
- Choose to feel connection. Repeat the following allowing, I want to feel connected to ABC. I choose to feel ABC. I have ABC. I am ABC.” Once you get there, feel your heart and let the connection sink in.
Try it and let me know how it goes –
I’m looking to fill 3 more spots in my 6-months 1-1 coaching/healing program.
It all boils down to one thing – releasing resistance!!!
Okay two things.. managing your mindset. ;)
If you’re ready to clear the shit tonne of resistance that you face daily as an entrepreneur (it’s a real thing) and move the needle, book a complimentary call with me and let’s chat.
Not sure it’s right for you? What will energy healing look like? How will this help you? That’s just resistance. So choose right now to let go it and book your call.
So I just had a birth day and I spent I spent it with my twin for the first time in 25 years. ;) It was awesome and weird all at the time same time. I’m truly blessed to have this MAN has my twin. Now if I could actually get him to cut my hair (he’s a high-end hair designer).
Usually at this time I get really introspective and I see what hasn’t changed.
But this year, I’m seeing what has changed.
I’m BEING rather than trying to be.
Instead of wondering if I’m doing it right, or saying the right thing to not upset anyone, I’m just being me. It’s enough.
This morning I decided to share a little bit more of ME with you.
Every Monday, with my private 1-1 clients, I give them an intuitive message via Voxer. I just check inn with Source and ask what they need to know. I LOVE doing it even though I always get a little nervous because what if they think it’s weird.
To some people, it is WEIRD.
This is part of what I’m being called to do and it FEELS bloody good (yes, that’s a sign). So here’s yours for today …
You have more beauty within you than you know.You don’t have to do more, have, be more.You are more.
Let it out.Don’t have clients yet?Don’t make enough money?Don’t have a partner?
You are more beautiful than anything you can create.
That’s because it comes from the inside out.
Let it out.
What would it feel like to find your voice & live your truth?
How would that impact your relationships, clients, business?
It would be AMAZING!!!!
Now I also created a little something called BEEING to help you do just that. It’s been a long time since I’ve been this excited about a program.
Click the link to check out all the details and let me know what you think…